Lately, graduate school has been slowly killing me. My ability to read, think and write at an academic level is out of the window. Three years was a long time to be out of school. I have a list of excuses in my head. I want to get out of this rut I am experiencing. I want to be able to reach out to professors and ask questions so that I understand the course more and everything but I have a hard time to even think of where to begin. I have an essay, proposal and presentation due in less than a week and I haven't even begin to think about it let alone start it. Procrastination has always been my weakness but this time it's not procrastination, it's my mental state. How can I get myself ready for this? At times like this, I start to think if I was every ready for this in the first place? Was this too much of a change for me to go into? Did I make the right decision? I made my decision and now I'm living through it. Part of me really wants to give up but another part of
It's been a month since I've been back in Canada ever since my big three year adventure in Japan. While I've been back, there have been many things that I had to do. Not only was I moving back to Canada, in a way, I was also moving again to a new area. This time with no pre orientation sessions like the JET programme nicely provided for me before and after my departure to Japan. Now that I have finally time to myself, I have had more time to reflect on this stressful period of my life. Next week, I'll be attending orientations for my master's program and it's kind of unsettling personally that I feel like I have nothing prepared for it. After further thinking about it, I don't think I have ever been prepared for anything ever since I decided to move back and go to school back in Canada. I was so sure and set that I would find myself a job back in Japan and go from there. However, even then, I thought myself, no. I'm not ready for this just yet. What is