Where are you now karmie?

Lately, graduate school has been slowly killing me. My ability to read, think and write at an academic level is out of the window. Three years was a long time to be out of school. I have a list of excuses in my head. I want to get out of this rut I am experiencing. I want to be able to reach out to professors and ask questions so that I understand the course more and everything but I have a hard time to even think of where to begin. I have an essay, proposal and presentation due in less than a week and I haven't even begin to think about it let alone start it. Procrastination has always been my weakness but this time it's not procrastination, it's my mental state. How can I get myself ready for this? At times like this, I start to think if I was every ready for this in the first place? Was this too much of a change for me to go into? Did I make the right decision? I made my decision and now I'm living through it. Part of me really wants to give up but another part of ...

It's been a month since I've been back in Canada ever since my big three year adventure in Japan. While I've been back, there have been many things that I had to do. Not only was I moving back to Canada, in a way, I was also moving again to a new area. This time with no pre orientation sessions like the JET programme nicely provided for me before and after my departure to Japan. Now that I have finally time to myself, I have had more time to reflect on this stressful period of my life. Next week, I'll be attending orientations for my master's program and it's kind of unsettling personally that I feel like I have nothing prepared for it. After further thinking about it, I don't think I have ever been prepared for anything ever since I decided to move back and go to school back in Canada. I was so sure and set that I would find myself a job back in Japan and go from there. However, even then, I thought myself, no. I'm not ready for this just yet. What is...

So I have to admit, I am not the best blogger in the world. Part of me wants to delete everything and restart everything but one weakness of mine is never really finishing what I started. This is something I am constantly working on. As sort of a life update: I have decided to not re-contract as an ALT and have applied and have been accepted to school. I will be returning to Canada in August, however, I am going to be moving to Toronto. It's a shame, I didn't really do much blogging about my time here in Japan as an ALT. Now that I have the time, sort of, I guess I should really post and organize my blog a little bit better. I have to admit, during my three years as an ALT here, I have traveled a lot around Japan. I managed to see a lot of shows, concerts and enjoyed my time very nicely. Now, it's time for me to buckle down and really think about things through. My last trip as my time as an ALT here will be a three day road trip to Shimane Prefecture. I am looking fo...